huh,Yes, finaly, results was out on last 5 days, and yes, mine really suck as usual, but expected anyway.

I received motivation, and comfort from my family and friends, especially my parents after getting my results.I'm proud of my friends tat get such brilliant results, they deserved tat anyway. 3 years before this, I've no ambition, but I convinced to study hard in science stream as tats the one tat I chose by myself tat time.But, when time goes by, I didn't get wat I want actually and I ddin't do wat I promised to my parents and myself. Really feel sad to get this result and i really don't know how to face those frens who get more and more great results than mine. Ahhhh, and, one more thing expected. Relatives, frens keep on calling or texting me, and yeah, those aunts, Uncle Ong, and cousins keep on asking me and my mum bout my result this and tat, it's kind of annoyed for my mom, dad, and I. of course, I really feel sorry to them coz they need to tell those 38 relatives bout my shit result which is really can't get any compliment. On the meanwhile, they hav to accept the truth tat their daughter's frens all get good results like ah hoe 11As, Qiu Shuang 9 As, Ah Siok 11As, Yeemay and Bhui 7 As, Sharon 10As. But papa and mama still encourage me and comfort me. They let me choose between the colleges tat I want and Form 6. Yes, I just made up my decision few days ago, and I promise to do my best on it, for me, and my parents. Until now, I still feel the sadness on my result, but it's kind of motivation for me to remember this and I'll never repeat it again. By the way, I just met S coach yesterday and really glad to met him again, =) but too bad, I didn't get to hav a chat with him this time.And after tat, I went to Klang Parade and bought fast food from Popeyes, which is my dad's favourite. I rushed back home then to watch the MY FM Awards live and I get to watch my idol, LeeHom there, he's still awesome, caring, and handsome.He was being hugged a lot yesterday, I memorized a hug the most, which is bout a local female singer said something very touching, and she requested to shake Lee Hom's hand. Yes, she went to shake LeeHom's hand after she drop out her words. LeeHom gave her a big warm hug with encouragement, and kissed her cheek. It's really a big encouragement for her, and I was so touched and of course with a bit jealousy, to have such great hero of earth as my idol. =)
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Congratz to LeeHom for becoming the big winners last nite, Everything was awesome

Arghh, *jealous*..haha, but,he's nice and gentlemen lah LOL

Smile tat make all his fans fall in love to, cute! ;)

He looks good with this simple put on! =)

Aiyo, entau leh =))

  

嗯

成绩，预料之中

只是，还是无法接受

真的需要时间来平复

SOS

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Don't know wat to choose and wat to do
If I'm a straight-As student, then I think headache won't happened on me and my parents now. sigh
Just phoned to Taylor's, INTI Nilai, INTI Subang, IMU and my uncle about courses(counseling) and where-to-go.
A lvl, SAM, ADP, foundation, form 6 blah blah blah.
Planning to do foundation in sc in INTI Nilai then transfer to IMU but if can't study well in IMU, then hav to redo 1 or 2 sem or even will be kicked out by IMU, and heard tat the cert in IMU is just recognized in M'sia and Sri Lanka.LOL, and heard tat IMU not really good somemore the cost of the degree there is really expensive.On the other hand, I also planning to take sam in Taylor's but after 9 months for the programme, what to do for the rest degree years in Australia?hav to choose good Uni that got the course that i want to continue also.what about the earliest plan, form 6? LOL, stpm results just announced yesterday and I get to know tat my frens in sc stream just get 2 point something. One fella tat get 7 A's in SPM get 2.8 something in stpm and another one who get 11 A1 in SPM also didnt get even 3.5, he get 3.3.See, those who're really talented in sc can't even get the results they want,so I don't think I can go for form 6. it's Super duper tough for me, should be suffering coz I'm stupid enough anyways.
How? Taylor's SAM 28March intake and INTI foundation 21March intake, so have to decided fast and wise.I really don't know what I can go in now. sigh
SOS
help.orz

Promised

Valentines's over and it means nothing to me actually, balloons everywhere, couples everywhere, chocholates everywhere, but who cares? LOL, at least I don care bout them.

Uhhhhhhhhh, just made a decision, yeah, I just deactivate my facebook account, reason? (it's a secret. :)

feeling useless recently but can do nothing, useless rite?

haha, parents don wan me to study SAM and A lvl coz they said my standard not tat high and can't afford to study those stuff, and if I really make myself in it, I'll fail, surely.

See, I know what my parents think, thats why I oways don hav confident, coz i never been trusted, not even my dearest papa and mama.

They want me to study foundation, foundation! I don wan it coa the cert not really nice and good enuf for my future sake. They know, but they said they just can do tat and let me study tat coz they said I really cant study a lvl or SAM.How sad. It's a sad case, sad case! Just visited a doctor, thanks to him becoz he helped me to heal my face last time due to sensitivity on chlorine and fluorine. And today, we visited him again to check again for my face and my brother who's sick right now. We chatted with each other in the meanwhile and throughout the conversation, my mom knows he studied for medic in India for 7 years( after spm). These made my mom think of my brother and I. Somemore just now he asked my bro for his results. And I can see tat mom really moody after tat and having bad tempered tat time and even now, yes, still. She's thinking too much tat why her children can't score flying colours and study hard and well. i wish, I'm talented, I wish, I have a good brain, I wish, I'm hardworking, I wish, I can be a professionals, But.... who don't want to? Sorry mom, I wish hav and I can, to full fill ur hopes, but, I'm not able to do so. I'm not genius type, I'm not hard=worked type, I'm not brainy type. I'm slow in thinking and studying, I'm bad in calculating and memorising, but I'll try my best for myself, and both of u. I promised.

One more random post

cny goin to over and I'm goin to face my result on March 10.
AND of course, my further study, college? Form 6? I don't know.
What course? I don't know.
and please, don't said I love u and then dissapear again and again, it's like your mind is somewhere far away and I cannot get there seriously. No more texting, no more chatting, and no more calling, it's okay.
And PLEASE, you, stop asking me why there's no topic between us, I don't know.
sigh, working with my mom, fetch her go and back, swimming lessons, facebook-ing, gml-ing, what else I can do while waiting my result? But at least I got a work tat let me won't feel so lifeless, but arghh, life still sucks.
Mom keep on asking me to call this college tat college and asking me to surf the net bout courses, colleges bla bla bla. SAM? A-level? STPM? ADP? CPU? Foundation? don ask me, I don't know. I dont even know what's my interest and what can I study.
I'm always thinking this and that, and tats why I can't sleep well every night.shit u.

Random

I can see some friend's new life through facebook
and I can also see that how things change in their life and my life as well.
Studying in Colleges, working part-time, making new frens, having new relationship and whatsoever.
Everybody is like busy about their life and I noticed that something just changed so fast like ...to take an example, friendship? we won't chat with each other now although we on in the same time, I can't really find out the point in their status which about in their study, their life, their new frens, and etc.
honestly that feeling isn't good but these all were expected.LOL
I knew it , just that I didnt know it happened so rapid.

糟糕

糟糕
彻底把他的心给毁了
我也不想的
希望你幸福,快乐!

Emptiness

Emptiness filled me today. Everyone is going to school today and I was supposed to do the same 


for the past decade yet I'm staying at home missing the awesomeness of my school life. :C


And one more thing, many frens are goin to attend their National Service, and of course, some


 are goin to college to study, some are working and Me? THATS THE MAIN POINT.don't ask 


me what about me, YES, my answer is I DON KNOW, i just full of emptiness, I lost my way, I 


don't know what to do, and thats all, bye bye.


ish.

Last post in 2010

Yeah, The last post, BUT just in 2010, and 2day, at 12.00a.m., is New Year!
A brand new year, and a brand new life for me, no more Kwang hua school, and no more spm
What I'm goin to face is, take my result on 10 March 2011, and ......I think problably I'll hav my new life in High school Form 6. Awww noooo, I don dare to see my result seriously, it will make me cry...LOL
okay,hmmm...last day of 2010, nothing special, and I won't celebrate it, yeah, I'll just lay on my bed and watch at the orange light in my bedroom, and think about my goals in 2011 and what I want to do in the brand new year, also, I'll make a wish at tat moment..hehe...I think almost every past new year,  midnite I'll did tat..yeah, of course, after tat I'll busy texting here and there. ^__^hmm, actually, the end of the year is a time for reflection. We look back of the past 12 months to see what we accomplished, which goals we met( or didn't), and what we lost or gained. And, I think I'll cry when I recall back the past 12 months in 2010, because in this year, I lost many things and I didnt meet any of my goals, haha, very funny.=C Anyway, what i gained was perfect memories with my family and friends. I love them very much.
Conclusin: 2010 brings me laughter and much more sadness.
Welcome! 2011, I hope I'll did more well in this year..LOL

Nil

Recently like many 'tao hua" like tat, good or bad? LOL
i don wan to hurt people so I tell them straight away my feeling, am I correct?
ahhhhhh~don think too much Haaaaaaah
anyway, goin to start to learn swimming next year, yes is this Saturday! LOOOOL New year tat day! hmm, quite troublesome oso coz i hav to fetch along my frens there about 5 months?ahhhhhhhhhh~shui bian haha
okay, anyway, I hate u Mr. stupid in saying tat learn to swim  is good, BUT is second thought! And And And the 1st thought is I'm short? ==" I hope I can slap u at once but I'm facing keyboard and my pc, but not ur face, okay, and I'm not tat rude lar, I will just step on ur leg and let u cry ur *** **! grrrr.
okay, I hate u lar. byebye

最近

最近家里发生了些不愉快的事
爸妈也知道了那个某某某
算了 对我来说 并不重要
重要的是他们别有误会就好
哥哥就不同
至少我终于知道
他    是    情    痴
我们也因他的感情事而插手
他也因我们的插手而远离我们
我和他的距离
变远了   他仿佛变成另一个人似的
爱情这个东西好可怕   它改变了哥哥的性格
算了  昨天一路上去了云顶玩
哥的心不在那里   大家玩得不怎么愉快  叹
唉, 假期的开始, 让我窝在家里快发霉了
妈妈不舍得我出外打工, 硬是要我去Language school or 绘画班,游泳班什么的去补习==
真是服了她,但是这样也好不是么?
我的人生有了变动

昨天去了大众书局
帮妹选了升上中一的参考书
似乎这次的逛书局让我    很不自在    很奇怪
除了帮妹妹买书, 我不知道我还能做什么, 买什么
以往的我, 肯定会买一大堆明年上学要用的书   但是这一次   不一样了
当然    爱情小说迷的我    完全 没有兴致去选   最后,一本都没买上   奇迹啊
妹妹和哥哥还以为我发神经了,因为我竟然一本爱情小说都没买
其实   也没什么, 就只是不想看了
嗯  考完华语过后没和朋友狂欢  只留在家制图
很赶, 隔天就是截止日期了, 但是, 最后也算完成
没有任何制图软件  就这样, 拿了照片到网上去弄了一下, 由于是免费的
图片, 当然 也不会做到很好看
以为会落选, 怎知却得奖了
应该是因为今年选手们竞争力较差吧,嗯.

http://i296.photobucket.com/albums/mm178/yin_L/20101212124a.jpg

Nil

Argh.
Feeling unhappy recently,i used to think too much,oh no.
I just can't stop thinking in negative way,ok, I'm not tat optimistic..HAha
3 more subjects to go, hav to be a nerd these few weeks,LOL
and my house is doing renovation, see, I can hear the noise NOW,non-stop-noise,cool huh?
HAHA,nothing. =C
argh.

无法挽救

很多很多东西都变了
身边的事物,朋友,都没想到这个地球转得这么快,变得这么多...
就连我自己也变了吗?好悲哀(默
有时真的有不想活的感觉
糟糕了
身边的朋友都太杰出,太棒了,有点不能呼吸那样
现在终于明白我是超级白痴无敌加三级
怎么你们都那么棒? ='C

SPM!

the day after 2moro-SPM
yeah its my big war, the most bigger one in my life, at least, now.
Can't imagine my Shit result after all, hah
I cannot return to the past, yes. I regret.
Try to do my best last these few days ,I meant revision
and hope tat I can do my best too in every single exam in SPM.
God Blass Me.Woot~

Graduation day !sweet and sour

Aw~graduated yesterday!!!
I just can't believe it~Time flies
5 years in Kwang Hua, 5 years with friends, teachers
5 years sitting monthly test, 5 years sitting examination, 5 years activites....
They're just past and I can't return to that every single moment...
The things left is my 5 years memories in KHHS , friends, and teachers.
Yesterday I think we all performed quite well and funny on stage.
And really felt happy because got people willing to help me taking video of our class performance, Thanks Mr. Him.haha
And, I was crazy taking photo with friends as a part of memories
But still left out many friends, times rush and I can't get to take photo with every single friends..Pity~Arghhh
Yesterday was my very first time hang out with friends, my first time sit public bus and my first time chiong K with my dear friends, They're rocks!!!
If got chance, maybe I'll hang out with them more frequent?LOL..I don't know, who knows?haha
I would like to say, trhoughout this 5 years, I've learnt many many thing, I've met many many friends, and I've met many many teachers,5 years memories....I will never forget and I'll always keep them in my heart forever, Love u all guys, love u too, KHHS.

Daddy's Birthday yesterday and some small things happened yesterday.

As usual, we celebrated dad's birthday, 4/11.
BUT, something different was his workers joined us yesterday and it was much more lively and bustling.
After they went back, we had another part 2 activity..LOL...actually was part 2 present.
We sang songs for him and my brothers played his guitars =D
The atmosphere was pretty nice and sweet. =)
And, just chat with one old friends yesterday, he asked me what will I miss the most after graduation.i told him memories from form 1 till now. I'd think back those memories during the midnight and till I falled asleep. See, that's another things happend in the meantime. Yeah, I ffk another friend d...LOL
2 days continuous ffk him...Hahahaha...He should feel bad lol
Anyway, and.. I  received my addmaths teacher message yesterday,hmm...it was a spirit arousing text..huh...made me headache....=(



Dad's BD Cake xD..hmm..is Chocolate strawberry flavour..lol




Dad's cake from his workers..=="haha

 






=)

Cheers xDD



How?

20 days to go for the SPM examination.
Still remember when I was 15,  when I was Form 3
It seems I was more mature, more dicipline, more hardworking and know how to think at that time.
The most important is, I know what I have to do and I had get what I want that time. Haha
Now? Shit, I did shit, I think shit, everything shits happened these 2 years. I've lost my way. How?
Mom keep on asking me whether want in local university or Colleges. If I'm a an above average student, I'll choose Local University for sure. And I can apply some scholarship for myself ! I know mom and dad hope that I can read into local U because they want me to get a steady job and steady salary, at least in local, not overseas. Although it is hard to go through this path, but it is worth.
Anyway, the problem is am I smart enough to do that? Am I good enough to confront every obstacles later? Maybe.
Colleges? I don't know want to choose which courses and based on my shit result now, it is hard and I hav no confidence to choose any courses. I read science, not account, it is hard for me, and yes, stress for me to choose courses. I don't dare to choose, and I also don't know what to choose. I am damn regret not study well these two years, really regret for that, deep into my heart. No one can help me to do anything now. 20 more days! Better late than never?HUH? Ha~It doesn't suits me now. As you sow, so shall you reap. Ha. I know the answer because I never put my effort to sow anything. Consequences, I get Shit! *sigh. A bit regret to know some friends this year. They're fake, okay, maybe I was wrong and maybe that's all my fault, I can't blame them. ='C
So sorry for myself, mom and dad. What else I can do? How?
Life sucks.

烦

烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦 烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦 最近很烦 很烦 很烦 什么都烦 每一天都烦 干 I'am not a good dancer, I'm not a pro actress but I'm just a good audience. I' bad in memorising those stupid steps, I'm bad in acting. I just wanna be an audience, but I'm sure that I'll regret after that... Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....last year to perform on stage, and 1 secondary graduation performance in my whole life! JUST ONCE!!! =C And, mom was nagging me just now...huh...nag about my future, my future courses that gonna take, my future life in college or form six,my future ambition bla bla bla...*sigh *sigh *sigh Feel guilty because still don't have one target, still don;t know wanna do what, Form 6 or Colleges, continue taking science or change to account... Arghhhhhhh...and guess what?SH*T, I totally forgotten Sarah's Birthday!!!Didn't wish her today, she just sat in front of me!!!!! Hate myself larh~=C and mom don't want let me follow our class trip edi, she said very little people go and aiks...because that accident happened few days a go in Genting. She was afraid I meet up with that situition. I don't even  know which traveling centre I'm going to follow.*sigh Meet up some problems with friends, ah, okay, actually everything is ok, but just on the bright side, not the dark.ish!!! Little sister going to have a new hand phone and what I feel sweat is her model chic than mine and of course the cost..haha...yeah, is touch screen. Anyway, just followed my brother went to Lazo Diamond and bought one earing and one ring for mom..OMG~damn expensive,okay! It almost spend half of my money simpanan. I swear that I'll buy the one over thousand for my mom after 5 years. I told this to my brother yeah..he didn't listen into my word, I think. After that, we went to Speedy and bought 3 DVD albums for DAD, yeah 4/11, his Birhday, his big day.*sigh. Anyway, I don't really care the money because they're for my parents!Ha..Should spend for them. 1 and half hour something from now goin to tuition Addmaths, hate it, fbut there're just 4 or five days to tuition with my teacher, yes! Okay, talking craps today. End. *sigh

Oops,they noticed.

雯昀: 做么你最近emo emo 的?
tats wat my fren asked me yesterday.

wenyun: 2day i saw u sad sad de in class.No matter wat happen, remember to smile=). sad sad de not cute jor.
tats wat my another fren texted me testerday.

fab: 你做么最近酱sad?什么事har?
tats wat my father asked me yesterday.

姐,你最近有心事是吗?
tats wat my sister asked me yesterday.

wei,最近我真的酱伤心么?