Promised

Valentines's over and it means nothing to me actually, balloons everywhere, couples everywhere, chocholates everywhere, but who cares? LOL, at least I don care bout them.

Uhhhhhhhhh, just made a decision, yeah, I just deactivate my facebook account, reason? (it's a secret. :)

feeling useless recently but can do nothing, useless rite?

haha, parents don wan me to study SAM and A lvl coz they said my standard not tat high and can't afford to study those stuff, and if I really make myself in it, I'll fail, surely.

See, I know what my parents think, thats why I oways don hav confident, coz i never been trusted, not even my dearest papa and mama.

They want me to study foundation, foundation! I don wan it coa the cert not really nice and good enuf for my future sake. They know, but they said they just can do tat and let me study tat coz they said I really cant study a lvl or SAM.How sad. It's a sad case, sad case! Just visited a doctor, thanks to him becoz he helped me to heal my face last time due to sensitivity on chlorine and fluorine. And today, we visited him again to check again for my face and my brother who's sick right now. We chatted with each other in the meanwhile and throughout the conversation, my mom knows he studied for medic in India for 7 years( after spm). These made my mom think of my brother and I. Somemore just now he asked my bro for his results. And I can see tat mom really moody after tat and having bad tempered tat time and even now, yes, still. She's thinking too much tat why her children can't score flying colours and study hard and well. i wish, I'm talented, I wish, I have a good brain, I wish, I'm hardworking, I wish, I can be a professionals, But.... who don't want to? Sorry mom, I wish hav and I can, to full fill ur hopes, but, I'm not able to do so. I'm not genius type, I'm not hard=worked type, I'm not brainy type. I'm slow in thinking and studying, I'm bad in calculating and memorising, but I'll try my best for myself, and both of u. I promised.