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I crossed the line at first, trying very hard to walk away, you know, very hard.
Do you believe destiny ? The moment I already gave up, and then miracles started.
You came. amazingly you came. :/
Okay, I don't want to care anymore, enough.
And yeaaa, today is the day that cafe close, finally It comes to an end and right 11.30p.m., It will close and yes, no more Grand cafe. Parents tried very hard to keep everything stable and remain everything but, you know, things actually already fixed and you never know right one day It will change. The main chef is an old man, promised to work in the cafe for years but now, he left, reason: he's too old and recently his health was highlighted. Parents planned to close the cafe and change It to a seminar room, for hotel used. Honestly I don't think It's a bad thing for them because even they lost a cafe, but they gain back their time and yes, I don't want them to be that hectic. Imagine everyday they have to go to cafe to close the account and everything then ended up come back very late at night. I saw mom was thinking hard to make the business become better but you know, customers all. Well, they did a great job and what I see is not that bad, always. They still work like normal now, but yeah, more freedom, more spaces than before. :)

Gambateh.

Things became more complicated

So yes, things became more complicated when I was about to give up, or when i gave up
Something relate to you hits me and here It goes, again.
I mean, I really wanted to give up but see, I have to face the thing that It relates to you. So I asked, and I was the one who ended the conversation. I don't want to, but I did. I don't wish for anything, because I know, everything will be fine after all, and I need not to suffer this, someday, I know right.

did a small test for myself, credit to Jing Wei senior :)
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


OhMyGosh, pretty near to myself haha, at least, you know, the view on yourself, type of bf tat I'm looking for, readiness, view on success, most afraid of, and my true self :) Not bad ! :) haha ! So, yeaaa

Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

Grandma May

Finally, mid-term holidays started today and It is a two weeks holidays. Ahhhhhh, finally. Two weeks examination just ended and within this two weeks, I realise something, many things happened within these two weeks. Studies, friends, family, something that I never thought before, something that I never expected before, something that I couldn't accept, something that I know I should give up but It's hard. Life's a box of chocolate, I love chocolate and I know there's white, black and dark chocolate, It's the very basic ones. Sweetness and bitterness say It all.

Caution, It's a grandma stories ! :P


Let's begin with studies. I'm still bad on exams, especially economic, imagine, 9 over 30. If you get 9 over 30. What would you feel ? Went back to Kwang Hua yesterday, met my Chemistry, Biology, Chinese, BM, Moral teachers. I miss them so so badly, I miss sciences a lot, a lot. This is when Pn Tan asked me how am I doin and  what I'm studying what right now. I never know I will step to economic this field, but since I've stepped in to this, I will remember the purpose on doing so, switching from a science student to an art student, from laboratory, chemicals, equations until graphs, history, economy all. It was a tough choice to make that time and what to do since I gave up on my ambition by knowing I'm not capable to realise my dream. I have no regrets that I did this decision but yes I do regret that I didn't study hard that time, that causing me to make such choices in life. No matter what, I will never ever give up on this, at least now, I'm not a science student, I won't. That's what my plan to do this whole holidays. Besides outing with friends, accompany my family, I have to study. I must.
Well, friends. Don't feel to talk much about friends because this is so called life, life with friends, laughters, tears , school life, so yeaaa :)
Family. Recently mom and dad are busy arranging and doing their new business, cafe and hotel. I can see their determination to do this. It's hard and things become complicated when they, my parents have no experience before to do this. They are business man, but not chef: they are business man, but don't have any hotel management knowledge from any school, colleges, universities, none. They're not top students, they don't have any financial support from families before, they don't know how to speak English, and now, They are doing a lot of things that people cannot do. I salute them, not much, but a lot. I can see their tears and sweats in between, the wrinkles, yes I can see.
Another thing, started not so long, but at least this thing annoyed me for months. Conclusion, I have to give up and move on. I always bear this on mind, but still I couldn't control myself from thinking much. I'm watching people suffering, I'm watching people moving and me ? I'm always sitting here and I did nothing. Yes, I might move forward but just one or two steps, who knows right ? haaaaaaaaah ! So, I'm going to move on, to the direction that I'm supposed to move. Time's precious. I cherish everyone I love. Friends, Familes and people that I know. I love you guys.

Just that much

I wish there's turning time, which I can study effing hard for my science subjects

Biology  Chemistry  Physics  Addmaths

放 还是不放

总是在原地打转

却什么都做不了

我知道 我什么都知道

就是因为知道 所以 才知道 我

一直以来都是站在原点的人

我不会前进 根本就没有机会前进

无知 天真 甚至 还抱有 不可能发生的希望

放弃吧 

至少我们都在同一片天空下成长不是吗

四个字

在那一刻 我特别幸福 :)
我笑因为那一刻 我哭因为那一刻 的结束