SOS

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Don't know wat to choose and wat to do
If I'm a straight-As student, then I think headache won't happened on me and my parents now. sigh
Just phoned to Taylor's, INTI Nilai, INTI Subang, IMU and my uncle about courses(counseling) and where-to-go.
A lvl, SAM, ADP, foundation, form 6 blah blah blah.
Planning to do foundation in sc in INTI Nilai then transfer to IMU but if can't study well in IMU, then hav to redo 1 or 2 sem or even will be kicked out by IMU, and heard tat the cert in IMU is just recognized in M'sia and Sri Lanka.LOL, and heard tat IMU not really good somemore the cost of the degree there is really expensive.On the other hand, I also planning to take sam in Taylor's but after 9 months for the programme, what to do for the rest degree years in Australia?hav to choose good Uni that got the course that i want to continue also.what about the earliest plan, form 6? LOL, stpm results just announced yesterday and I get to know tat my frens in sc stream just get 2 point something. One fella tat get 7 A's in SPM get 2.8 something in stpm and another one who get 11 A1 in SPM also didnt get even 3.5, he get 3.3.See, those who're really talented in sc can't even get the results they want,so I don't think I can go for form 6. it's Super duper tough for me, should be suffering coz I'm stupid enough anyways.
How? Taylor's SAM 28March intake and INTI foundation 21March intake, so have to decided fast and wise.I really don't know what I can go in now. sigh
SOS
help.orz

Promised

Valentines's over and it means nothing to me actually, balloons everywhere, couples everywhere, chocholates everywhere, but who cares? LOL, at least I don care bout them.

Uhhhhhhhhh, just made a decision, yeah, I just deactivate my facebook account, reason? (it's a secret. :)

feeling useless recently but can do nothing, useless rite?

haha, parents don wan me to study SAM and A lvl coz they said my standard not tat high and can't afford to study those stuff, and if I really make myself in it, I'll fail, surely.

See, I know what my parents think, thats why I oways don hav confident, coz i never been trusted, not even my dearest papa and mama.

They want me to study foundation, foundation! I don wan it coa the cert not really nice and good enuf for my future sake. They know, but they said they just can do tat and let me study tat coz they said I really cant study a lvl or SAM.How sad. It's a sad case, sad case! Just visited a doctor, thanks to him becoz he helped me to heal my face last time due to sensitivity on chlorine and fluorine. And today, we visited him again to check again for my face and my brother who's sick right now. We chatted with each other in the meanwhile and throughout the conversation, my mom knows he studied for medic in India for 7 years( after spm). These made my mom think of my brother and I. Somemore just now he asked my bro for his results. And I can see tat mom really moody after tat and having bad tempered tat time and even now, yes, still. She's thinking too much tat why her children can't score flying colours and study hard and well. i wish, I'm talented, I wish, I have a good brain, I wish, I'm hardworking, I wish, I can be a professionals, But.... who don't want to? Sorry mom, I wish hav and I can, to full fill ur hopes, but, I'm not able to do so. I'm not genius type, I'm not hard=worked type, I'm not brainy type. I'm slow in thinking and studying, I'm bad in calculating and memorising, but I'll try my best for myself, and both of u. I promised.

One more random post

cny goin to over and I'm goin to face my result on March 10.
AND of course, my further study, college? Form 6? I don't know.
What course? I don't know.
and please, don't said I love u and then dissapear again and again, it's like your mind is somewhere far away and I cannot get there seriously. No more texting, no more chatting, and no more calling, it's okay.
And PLEASE, you, stop asking me why there's no topic between us, I don't know.
sigh, working with my mom, fetch her go and back, swimming lessons, facebook-ing, gml-ing, what else I can do while waiting my result? But at least I got a work tat let me won't feel so lifeless, but arghh, life still sucks.
Mom keep on asking me to call this college tat college and asking me to surf the net bout courses, colleges bla bla bla. SAM? A-level? STPM? ADP? CPU? Foundation? don ask me, I don't know. I dont even know what's my interest and what can I study.
I'm always thinking this and that, and tats why I can't sleep well every night.shit u.