Haih

Guess what ? I'm having the same mood as yesterday. Even worse. I mean, after reading my friend's blog

I feel much more sorry to him and I never knew that we can really set him up. But see, things already happened and I can just sit here, write my blog and do nothing. I said sorry to him but still, I cannot forgive myself for being such a prankster. I was the head of the planner and I was the most excited one after knowing that he got pranked, and yes, I bet I was the one who regretted the most. Knowing that he did all single things, and the call will be broadcasted, on air and listened by everyone I felt more worst when I heard that he got laughed by friends yesterday during tuition, and I could hardly imagine that what will happened on him on Monday in school. And one more, I hate people who didn't reply my message but people are people, I'm also part of them. I didn't reply friend's text sometimes, and so I know I have no rights to hope for a reply. Maybe It's not important to reply me but at least a yes, noted, or even a word "K" ? 

Sigh really defines everything. Words and typing not really helped me release my stress and I still can't put a smile on my face. I hope everyone will be like forgetting this thing as time goes by, and I hope our friendship is still there. Exam is around the corner, mid-term killer. So perhaps everyone don't feel to bother this thing much and just focus on studies ? Hope so lah.

Imma Prankster

So, I feel so bad, just now, yeaaa, until now
Pranked my good friend through radio station, Fly FM
Didn't think that he will get pranked so easily but yes, It just happened.
he did what the DJ asked him to do, like measure his mouth by using his fist etc
And then he was like super emo just now :(((((( thinking to get a plastic to cover his face to school and
he said he's dead,  :( I shouldn't have did this to him, this is not funny at all laaaaaaaaaaaa :(

Sad la !

Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. And never demand. Just let it be. If it's meant to be, it will happen.
I hate you, so much thank you ! D:

Apa?!

I hate this kind of feeling, like shit. :(

Even you failed to make me smile.

Yes, I'm super stress recently :(((

了吗?

我不想被 多余的幻想 吞咽

那很糟 好吗

有时候 知道了却只能保持沉没的那种感觉

有时候 被超越的那种感觉

有时候 被忽略的那种感觉

有时候 被蒙在鼓里的那种感觉

有时候 明知到不可能又存有希望的那种感觉

有时候 讨厌却不能说出来的那种感觉

有时候 心情很糟谁也不能说只能走走的那种感觉

知道了故事的进出 其实没有帮助到我多少

三岁小孩都知道的道理

你 到底 懂不懂

专心念书吧

要加油

下雨了,开始吧

外面的雨下得真大
可惜我闻不到雨水,也看不到外面盆里的鱼
突然有股冲动,想要到外面去闻一闻雨的味道,看一看那些小鱼
不知道他们是否安全,毕竟这雨实在是太大了,这雨对他们来说应该是场雷雨大袭击吧,
又或许他们觉得这种天气是他们躲在小荷花叶下的最佳欢乐时光,自由自在
多好是吧? :)
雷雨大袭击就留给泥土里勤奋储存食物的小蚂蚁好了.
说真的,这种天气,躲在被窝里睡觉再也适合不过
不知怎么最近很困,很爱睡,真的深怕驾这车都会睡着
咖啡茶什么的对我真的 没有效啦,其实这样算是幸福么?
栽头就睡的人,很幸福吧?至少朋友是这样说我的,他们面临失眠问题,想睡一觉都难
所以事实证明我很幸福? 呵呵
                      *******************************************
最近学校课业忙死了,这是我脑袋里传出的讯息,很清醒的一个讯息,但是我不得不承认我懒啦
其实不是最近课业忙死了,是应该说应该在忙着课业,忙到要死的那一种...所以"其实"这两个子很重要,拿掉就可以骗人去了.所以....三岁小孩的谎话我竟然拿来骗我自己,杯具啊啊啊 !
好吧,昨天看了一下日历,望了那堆书本,是时候不要让自己对不起自己了

加油 

四月了.哦

停歇的脚步

并没有让我特别好过

但是至少

我还是热血的

我知道有些事不可能发生

所以我宁愿选择放弃

放弃不代表真正的放下

而是知道自己做不到

所以宁愿放手
有时候对自己好
真的是天经地义

有时候

紧握着拳头继续前进

才是王道

空想

如果
你的想法和我一样

如果
我真的不用这样

如果
我知道更多

如果
你知道我

Starbucks people !

Alright, acutally I just post this photo for fun, just wanna share the message out
Support Earth Hour by switching off ur house' light at 8.30pm - 9.30pm !
and YES, Starbucks ! You"ll get one free Frappuccino babeh ! I mean, if you downloaded the foursquare apps on your phone and check in :)
Well, I'm bored, I cannot meet my friends there later night lalalalal D:
My Frapp ://// FREE FRAPPPPPPPP DDDDDDDD;

Randomieee

Gaaah, exams coming soon, and the day after tomorrow, seniors' results will be released.
See how fast time flies right ? I was thinking next year, my turn to take it.... Dang ! STPM :/
4 flat ? Yeah, that's every form six students' target and I'm one of them, hoping to get it.
Stress in class, exams, test, everything. Not only stress on exams, I mean the competition between friends.
This is like a marathon, when you stop, you'll lose. In other way, means the possibility to chase your own dream will become lower and let people to overtake you. You, decide your own future.
Alright, so no more slacking okay, Damn, i was like keep on saying this since form 4 hahahaha but MIA :P
By the way, I miss Lee Hom's concert so so so so so much.

那是一份感动

永不停息的感动

真的爱死他了

爱因为在心中

Lee Hom's concert 303

4/3/2012

So Yes, I was super duper excited until now :D
Went to Music Man Wang Lee Hom's concert yesterday with my family, sitting in VIP sits
Still not that closer with Lee Hom but I enjoyed the night. IT WAS AWESOME
Lee Hom ROCKS ! the stage was so god damn nice and Lee Hom was so handsome and talented.
he's caring enough when he circled the whole stadium just to met his fans and get to them closer. He didn't mind It was still raining that time Awwwwwwww.
So, yeaaaaah, my first time concertgoing was My HUGE Idol's -Lee Hom
When the time he played the piano with ni bu zhi dao de shi and ai cuo mix, we're just sooo close OMG ! :DDDDDD Anyways, a very great night spending with Lee Hom, my family and all HOMies. Feel statisfied and MOTIVATED :) Look forward for his next concert or autograph session :)))

Problem ?!

Revealed me something and keep some part of it

I mean purposely.

YES, you lied.

Knowing that your foe is a weak foe but in someone's eye she's the best

YES, you lose.

Pretend nothing happened when you actually care

YES, epic FAIL...

Stop Lynas, Save Malaysia !

Lynas. What is Lynas, the top question that searched by people recently.

I was first realizing this issue from a video that shared by one Malaysian singer, Kah Jun.

Didn't heard of Lynas before but just Jeremy Lin ? LOL

Alright, so I found It's severeness after watching that video and then many people started to share 

this issue through facebook. So actually what is Lynas? Knowing Pahang and Kuantan area are the places that got this kind of factories, that making nuclear by using harmful chemical substances , in the mean time releasing toxic gas like Thorium and Uranium. Once the dust is released from the factories to river, sea, air, people, animals, and our environment will get influenced whereby the radioactive rate will be god damn high, that is 300,000 tons of radioactive waste will be produced every year. When human are exposed to those radioactive materials, the most common signs are: nauseous, dizziness, peeling of the skin and drop of white blood cell. Severe exposure will lead to death usually within 2 days up to 2 weeks, and it is uncurable.

Radioactive material can also impair our DNA, causes the birth of abnormal infants and cancers.

SO here's a photo for more details :P

and here's some photos that I found on facebook, 2.0 against Lynas.

And yeap, my group of art friends, joining this event by drawing a picture of  "Stop Lynas, show if you care".

So, I was part of them, long long long time ago hahaha, since I'm free and in order to show that "HEY, I DO CARE and STOP lynas, save Malaysia, I've joined them and here's my artwork :)

Illusion

So, 7 years of friendship gone ? ...........................
Oh My Gosh, what am I thinking right now ? ://
shoo shoo shooooo, get out of my mind :/
The word "walk lah duh" substitute the word "Move!"
That's the best part of today. You know, emotional LOL, no way for playing with that
So, I better run back to my own world before stepping in your world.
We are in different route, different world.
Btw, recently addicted to a Korean Drama :3 Called Secret garden and yeaaaa, the songs in it !
They are all awesome ! :D

Happy Tuesday ! :P

Today is Valentine's Day but for me, It is just a.. Tuesday, hahah !

So had a simple makan with my dearest friends, couple set ! :P

And then tuition, and now, facebook, stay at home study study study !

Suddenly think of some friends, how are you guys ? ;)

And I know you are doing very great now ! :))) Happy Valentines again everyone, to those couple, 

stay sweet and stay happy forever together, life's short and cherish the one that beside you, the one

that going to walk with you, laugh with you and cry with you in the rest of your life, to those single, 

Happy foreveralone ? haha ! Okay, Happy Tuesday and enjoy freedom ! You'll find your partner someday

It's just not the right time, slowly choose and you will meet your soul mate ! :)

 with Peace. Love

我们的回忆与您相伴。。。R.I.P

"台湾歌手，有“帽子天后”之称的凤飞飞，因肺癌于2012年1月3日在香港病逝，享年60岁。
凤飞飞病逝的消息是在保密一个多月后，家属和律师今天才在香港召开记者会，公布凤飞飞病逝的消息，并对外交代所有的身后事已经处理好。
行事作风低调的凤飞飞，特别交代等过完了农历年元宵，才能公布去世的死讯。
根据声明，在临终前，凤飞飞曾说：“我这一生，过得快乐，活得精采，感谢陪着我一起走过这段精采岁月的彩虹姊妹兄弟们，没来得及唱的歌，下辈子再唱给您们听！”"


接触这首歌，还隐约记得是在小学二、三年级。我们长大，这首­歌也成为了永垂不朽的作品。昔日的辉煌，今日的永恒。谢谢凤飞飞的歌声。。。

一段時空，帶給我們一段記憶．

在這一段記憶中，有著你我共同的眼淚．

繼續走，不要回頭．

妳的歌聲留在生長的土地中，

不斷的增長，不斷的吟唱．

這一份愛是沉默的，

就如同妳走得如此安靜體貼。

                  

Her Rule, will never ever ends.

"Whitney Houston, who ruled as pop music’s queen until her majestic voice and regal image were ravaged by drug use, erratic behavior and a tumultuous marriage to singer Bobby Brown, has died. She was 48."


This is just too soon...too soon...Whitney Houston has died yesterday at the age of 48. She's a very talented singer, her heart melted voice and her majestic voice will be always remembered. Immortal legends.

RIP Whitney and prayers go out with her family, friends and fans all over the world. 

我的心，复杂化了 ?

心简单，世界就简单，幸福才会生长；心自由，生活就自由，到哪都有快乐。 

回 首

 募 然 回 首，  鼻 子  开 始酸 溜 溜 了

 我 想 到 以 前 和 你 们 在 一 起 的 时 光

 然 后 我 想 起 当 时 的 我

 是 多 么 的 不 堪 一 击

 经 历 人 生 的 失 败， 低 潮， 无 助

 试 试 看 在 人 群 中 只 有 你 走 不 到 你 想  走的 路，

 永 远 都 无 法 实 现 自 己 的 梦 想

 接 着 要 知  道 所 有 一 切 都 是 咎 由 自 取， 自 己 把 自 己 的 梦 想 捏 碎

 破 灭， 黑 暗， 嘲 笑 随 之 而 来 。

 我 傻 了。

 

Wong Fu and my normal days LOL

OH MY GOD ! THEY ARE COMING TO MALAYSIA ON 4TH OF FEB ! Yes, I mean Wong Fu !

Wong Fu For Lyfe ! :/ Okay the venue is at Taylor Lakeside Campus, the tickets aren't expensive but the places to grab the tickets are too far ! KL man, or Taylors. :/

Okay, what attracted me is they're coming to talk about their making of videos and yes, the photograph session ! 

By then today is 19 of Jan, the tickets SHOULD HAVE sold out, if not, I also won't able to grab the ticket, who wants to help me buy ? And then still got transport problem after that, sooooooo *self comfort*

By the way, another chance to grab the ticket is through writing something about this : What is the craziest thing you would do to see Wong Fu Productions in person? So I saw many comments and I don't really think I'll be chosen as the winner to grab the tickets, they're too many people participating this and they're too creative ahaha, kidnap, protect them, LOL.

Okay, back to normal, school life, lameeeee ! :/ MUET results, damn ! After whole day of schooling I was like super tired and sure have to get a nap, howww ? I have to get rid of taking nap ! Okay, let's talk about yesterday's PMD (Program Maju Diri) at school, only 31 people came to school and I was one of them hahahah ! it was okay, games, group discussions. At least I've learnt some lessons but the last activity was about doing some questions and check your answers and see whether you're actually interested on what courses. I was stop at part B where the occupation statements were all about sciences, Chemistry, Biology, Physics. *Emo starts* LOL. Nevermind, I shouldn't have think too much about that, should have concentrate on what I'm doing and studying right now. Read, Do, Practice, or else you won't be quilified to enter University and get the course you want. One word, D@@ haha ! So, what to do ? haiiih, say bye bye to experiments and chemicals ! Life's rocks yeah, with friends, COMPETE with yourself, not others !

Define Friend

I'm in a super bad mood now

Still got many homework haven't done, and 2moro still got economic test, I haven't prepared.

And MUET essay, not even a start.

But what made my day down is you. :/

Shouldn't trust people so much, this not the first time, I should knew it early :C

Define Friend

So this is Upper six ! :D YAY -.-

So this is just a start of upper six life.
Second day of upper six life, everyone's start to complain this and that
So yes, everyone feels the stress of becoming a form six students, so do I.
Just the first day of schooling, I felt stress and it's killing me
Just took Sej notes from seniors, damn, THEY ARE A LOT, I MEAN, REALLY A LOT
So make me recall back Kai Jian ex- seniors' words, saying and reminding us to memorize at least one peta minda everyday. Sejarah got 2 paper, 4 bahagian to cover. So I have to use my time to do peta minda, read reference book, tuition, exam, read notes, memorize everything.
PA- Bahagian E @@ I'm really confuse about it. Somemore paper 1 ! Text book, WHY YOU NO THIN ? same, a lot to read and memorize.
BM- Ish, one thick text book also, and reading it is really killing me okay ! :/ I saw many alien words in the book before, and got many I haven't learn, no extra tuition to help me on this
Econs- Finally, one of the killer :// Don't want to talk much because I already feel scary of these four.
Form six ! Why you no easy ?! :/

Heiyo 2012 ! :D

1/1/2012

The very first day of 2012, yea I can smell Spring, CNY, joyful and blessing :)
As usual, celebrated New Year with family, but this time we celebrated at cafe there
with friends, relatives and fireworks :)
At 12a.m. sharp, fireworks everywhere and road blocking everywhere haha !
Anyways, since today is the first day of 2012 so I have to make full use of it by making it as a great new start of the year, 2012. Sincerely hope that the end of the world 2012-story won't really happen and hope everyone get the life that they wanted with full of peaceful and blessing.
By the way, this year is really really a very important year for me, of course and all STPM candidates
This is the year for us to strive hard and perform our best in the exam war. It's the time to forget all the bad things from the past, grab the regrets from the past, and return it with a brand new positive force to let me become a more healthy, strong and mature girl, to know what should I do and what I shouldn't do.
So now set a goal and aim it with no regrets, I can do it ! :)
Position ! hiyyakkk !

Be Strong

There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true 

right ?

So, rather than refuse to take,

accept it, accept the truth

face it, face it bravely

watch it, like the way you watch the stars in the sky

Talk to the moon if you want to talk

9 days to go for Christmas

Going to write a letter for Santa which start with 

Dear Santa

Officially

So, they are officially free today, every 2011 form six candidates, big congratulation to them ! :)
Sooooo, they are officially free and out of jail and that means ? :/
 Awwwww I know, It is my turn to take it next year, errr no, I mean after one month, I'm no more a lower six students and think can slack the whole day and facebook till I forget my time, no more Twitter, Youtube, Plurk, can't really spend that much time on those, gosh, my entertainment, my boredom killer :/
Four subjects, people said they are the lightest four in form six, Sejarah, Economics, BM and the compulsary subject for both science and arts.
Guess It is the time to focus focus focus ! I mean REALLY FOCUS on studies okayy !
Honestly, my classmates are all....not saying genius but they are great, real real great, people can do the questions after listening to the explanation but not for me, people can really focus without influenced by their emotions, they are too smart, or yeaaa, I'm too stupid.
That's why, I have to put double, maybe triple or more effort than other people, I know myself, maybe not that well, but I know right.
Turning 19 nest year and yeaa grow ! Grow taller and smarter !
Anyway, watched Kev Jumba and Nigahiga's Christmas video today, wow, make me realize of Christmas ! 10days to go, how fast time flies right ! Christmas ! ho ho ho ! :D
Hmmm, suddenly make me recall back last year's Christmas, full of surprise and disappointments after that..
okayyy, don't think too much already, I can't deal with that. Happy Christmas blog walkers and you :)

 Officially missing you - Jayesslee <3

Nightmare :/

I always recall back the memory
It was a very very very sad story, when I use very very very then please, do not ask me
Thats it, I am so sad about that. It was a nightmare for me, always, even now, yes.
Nobody can help, nobody can comfort me, nobody can taste it and feel it. D:
Is is too horrible and terrible as well. D:
CI perhaps :/

Today Thursday loh.

Once upon a time, haaaah, so many stories started with Once upon a time
I know, It is just fairy tales ? Haaah, Yeaaaa.
I have my stories too, Once upon a time, but not really ended with beautiful ending, perhaps, bad one.
Some don't even have an ending.
Motivation ! Gosh, I need motivation so badly :/

11.11.11

11.11.11
For many, it's a special, glorious and wonderful day.
It won't happen again for another thousands years so, make it memorable ?
I don't know how to make it memorable, It's just an ordinary day for me.
But perhaps I can use it to make a wish. :)
Btw, Holidays just started today, but still, full with extra classes at school and tuitions, seek for December, Christmas !
Christmas dating hah !

Fly Fly up high > 1/11/11

Finally they graduated. haaaaah, time oh time. :)
Just gave them my handmade bookmark, haaha, full with love eh.
I did eleven for my seniors includes my foster, sifu, senior in clubs and good friends.
One same thing but each holding different message and wishes, deeply from my heart.
by the way, the only thing that is same is, I really thanks them in guiding in everything and thanks for giving me such beautiful and memorable memories.
Surely will miss them so much and I strongly believe that we will meet each other again in somewhere and someday.

短假

嘛，就这样假期了
一个礼拜的长假
说实在，我宁愿不要这一个礼拜的长假orz
就只剩三天而已
他们就会离开
很快不是么？
有点接收不到
假期嘛，就看电影，泡书，上网，画画， 睡觉好了
要做什么就做什么那样
今天心情 平平，被那些年的歌影响啊哈哈 @@

迷路

今天我迷路了
结果 迷路在我的字典里还没出现过
今天 却印下了
深深的 痕迹 真的很恐怖
当时 害怕 无助 慌张
然后就哭了
我不知道我在哪里 会不会有危险 会不会回不去
看下路牌，都是通往KL的路，怪恐怖的
然后第一个想到的是爸爸妈妈，要不要打电话
可是 要是他们知道我一个人载朋友回到那样陌生的地方
肯定担心死
可是不载朋友又好像 ><
唉
我还是那个我 不会拒绝， 差劲
结果打电话给好朋友，其实也没什么帮到，心灵上的安慰而已
最后 镇定下来， 慢慢跟着路牌走
终于到了 那份找到回家的路的喜悦 真的
很棒
下次我不会载你了抱歉

First final paper in Lower six.

Ish, bang wall lah dude !

First day of exam, I mean serious exam in lower six, guess what?

I MESSED IT UP.

And I know I will definitely screwed the paper, Arghhhhh, Pengajian Am. :C

The objective parts was Okay but the essay part, Ishhhh, I did a very wrong mistake and the graph part :/

okay I know I already die in the paper

Coming up next is Sejarah paper. :/ 

Not the easy one, But hard one. Oh how great I know right.

By the way, MUET speaking test went on smoothly than I've expected.

Thanks God :) Errrr...still got other papers, haih, but nevermind, slowly lah.

Anyways, yesterday was a scary night, I know what's going on, They are just brainless enough to did those stupid things. Idiots and cold-blooded. I say it, I mean it.

SHYT.

Thursday got MUET test, hope everything will be fine.
And feel so pressure recently :O
My classmates are insane, yes, they are, exactly.
Just got my BM small test paper today, results? Nahhh, sucks, 23 out of 50
I didn't get even half, HALFYOUKNOW ! It's just all objective, and I just can get this shyt result.
Others? Nah, better than mine lah of course. ._.
Nah, thsoe said never read all liars, 35 above -.-
Dont' know why, just, mood swings.
OH YEAAAAAAA, This Friday got exam SHYYYT, PA :O
Ciaoz !

Remembering our Great man- Steve Jobs

Didn't know our great man was passed away, until I open my Internet and my facebook

Steve Jobs - was born on 1955 and just passed away at the age of 56.

Many Great job that he have done, the greatest Apple technology, yes.

knowing the shocking news, and meanwhile, knowing that his great job Thanks to him for bringing us his invention and design. R. I.P

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life.

Almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.

Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it, and that is how it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. - Steve Jobs R.I.P :/


Love one of his quotes, he's amazing enough to change our life, enlighten and brought up our technology world. 
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. -Steve Jobs

表问

不要问我怎么脸上一直都是挂着笑容
因为，总觉得，只要笑笑，身旁的人都会比较开心吧
呃，感染力啊啊啊 （帅
然后不要问我为什么emo
emo还需要理由的么？（orz

                                               有时候要别人不要想太多

自己却也没想得太少

听说是时间太多的人才会想太多？

其实。。。是我自己懒惰啦喂，然后想那些有的没的 :P

Study hard, swim hard ;)

于是教练已经飞往UK
续他的律师梦 然后看到他的状态后
我的第一个反应就是 哇 ！好快！ :)))
而我也该收起任性 懒散的性格
嗯
是时候整理下思绪
清除心里那些没有必要提起还有在意的事情
只要收在心底就好（吧
毕竟我是人啊啊啊啊，怎么可能完全不去care
咿呀
算了，于是教练真的让我清醒了很多
突然觉得我还有很多事还没有做
还没完成

To all my students, study hard, swim hard ;)
哦也 老师加油啦 :) Best Of Luck for ya ! God bless.

Time to wake up because September gonna end soon.

So, Hello there ! yea, I'm talking to the air in my bloggie haha
Since, just few person know this blog of mine. Soooo, still feel safe on it.
Hmmmm, so fast huh? Old friends, we didn't chat for months. LOL, how are you?
Suddenly feel to meet up with you guys and girls...Suddenly I miss my old life and suddenly feel sad that my new friends going to graduate and will be leaving, soon.
Within months...just imagine that within months I can be so stupid and sad till like this.
I don't know why, maybe it's because I'm not that active during my secondary times and suddenly become very active this year. Knowing many friends and bringing me this mix up feeling, damn. I just don't know how to express. It is just eeeeeeeeeee, idk. ._.
Beep Beep Beep......Okay, whatever.
SO now, left one mp for ELS and time to focus on studies, Say no to other stuffs, I know It will cause double hurts after all. Have you heard some stories before? They're always some other stories behind one story.
It's complicated.

又 Somok?

我从来都不去多想
所以每一次被蒙在鼓里的都会是我
但是一直以来唯一没有变的
应该就是那个被人说中的单纯
单纯个屁啊？ 要成熟 ！ 成熟一点啦 ！
所以无论我的脸多单纯， 然后我多努力的成功扮到不单纯
结果
还不是一样？
死单纯orz

最近觉得
就算身边的朋友和你再怎么好
都没有用
因为在他们的世界里
拥有他们的另一套想法
他们在想什么
你不会知道
就算知道了
都是些伤人的， 没什么。

somok?

有时候也不知道为什么
会觉得特别不开心
原因： 自己有够差劲的 不是吗

Happy 916 Malaysia Day ! MERDEKA! ! !

Ahhhhhhhhh, yes yes yes yes yes yes
Finally, our performances ended extremely nice and awesome ! =)
Today was so excited because it's our last day to perform and finally we can go back to our normal school life.
And Yes, no need to being tortured like hell - - haha !
By the way, our performance was very success and I enjoyed today very much okay! *Thumbs up for everyone for the formation, we did it yay!!!
And today we were very crazy like what' Xin Nian Kuai Le' said INSANE ! bahahaha, we  took so many photos with random people LOL  Awesome ! We're like hermit that never come to this event before, running here and there, yelling here and there, taking photos here and there haha!
Oh yeah and guess what? hoho, we took many many gorgeous pictures and one of them really en tao like Yi Leng, Michelle and Woon hui those girls agree with haha! And Malay girls also can't stand to stake photo with him, nice experience ! Eh, he's so tall LOL! haha, he's taking with closing eyes, aiks bad timing to shoot oopsy haha, refer to girls' DP too if want to see his eyes haha!:P Err... what I need to say is people look damn nice with formal, tidy, clean, nice :))

Here goes with some ss photos hahaa! <3

Gaaah hahah, too many, can't upload all XD lazyyyy :P

Anyways, one of our formation ;)

MERDEKA ! MERDEKA ! MERDEKA ! =D
Time to off, byee and good night peeps! ;)

Sigh got use meh? haha!

Time flies, and our practice finally ended today and Friday is the final.

Slacked the whole month and now only realized how shyt right I know -.-

Soooooo, time to buckle up and be a nerdy, I don't want any failure to happen on my exam, never, ever.

By the way, long time didn't heard about your news, time really killer, kill our moment and time together and make our memories become thinner like a vile, can't rewind anything without any recall unless the thing I really care and I notice. no point on asking how are you because I know you're doing great great there. 

Anyways, recently feel bored and tired because of the stupid practice at Dataran Merdeka and long time didn't touch my Sejarah book, my brain going to rust and I can feel that my fear on that, plus MUET speaking exam on October 13, somemore seniors they all going to graduate soon. In the meantime, we will having our final exam. *BIG BIG SIGH*  So what I need to do is cherish every moment, enjoy my life. That is so much different with my secondary life. 

中秋节。思

小时候很顽皮，很天真，
最喜欢把每个蜡烛点完家里的每一个角落。亮亮的，很好看，
尤其是把五颜六色的蜡烛围着每个花盆，然后再抓昆虫来BBQ。
当然拉了一条线，点了满满一排的灯笼，然后再把其他灯笼挂在每一棵植物上，也很好看。
然后18岁了我还在这么做，只是没有烧昆虫了wahaha。
今年少了哥哥的陪伴是很奇怪但是至少我们的回忆还紧紧把彼此联系着
就算没有一起玩，一起庆祝，都有那个Fu~ =)

IMY 献给你 =)

Cute cousin :))

他。笨蛋猪哥

他把断了弦的吉他收起来了
然后把心爱的DSLR相机托付于我，当然还有他的旧手提电脑
还有他那个臭到不行，黑到不行，从小陪伴着他的小枕头，只有他当宝的小枕头一并交给了我保管
突然百感交集，心情变得有些沉重，不知道要说些什么才好
要说的话，他都已经说过，交代过我了
而我却不知道要说些什么，只是觉得说不出的不舍，在眼眶里打转
我自认依赖性强
这次他离家念书（还给我去到那么远的北大orz
我真的有一点不敢想象我会怎样
但是想必他的心情也好不到哪里去
他那么念家，那么幼稚，那么。。
离家最久的不过是去当兵那段时期，而且又是提早回来的那一群
只希望他能多回来，然后在那里过得充实，快乐
想必今年是他第一年没有在家和家人过中秋了唉
大学生活加油，哥。
我也会加油
希望下次我们见面，彼此都进步，成熟了。
除了加油，还是加油。

跟踪？ OH NO

所以我也心血来潮的写了 Yes!
CSL
A Gor 的朋友，佳礼kaki，自称神经质？好样的，神经质盖过一切啊哈哈
好吧，你的文章很好读，所以我followed了 （
然后想说 orz 和 TMD 我也是在网上混久了学来的哦也
然后看到你有在用，很不错下，因为我朋友都没人在用，除了论坛的，然后你第一个吧
没google那个TMD过，只是，混久了，大略知道其意思（吧
嗯，嫩，哎哟，不要想色情那方面就好啊哈哈
我真的很嫩，思想方面 :D

对啊，要考试了
10月
好快

文章？哈！随时update的咯（表哭 XD
现在很少读文章了，中学时期很喜欢读的唉

对了，请务必留下你的部落格，表关掉啊啊啊喂
你会看到TMD = 甜蜜的  >记录


你也是，大学了
加油

哔

网络世界，无奇不有
文字，到处都是
你大可以用文字到处留情，到处留下你的足迹
呐，就在非死不可那里，就可以看到
所以说人啊，越来越难摸索
利用文字来蒙骗？
还是利用文字来表达？
还是我想太多，懂得太少？
你可以用你的表情来掩盖你的情绪
所以，文字也可以掩盖你的真实故事了吗？
                                                                                   我不知道。
                                                                                   然后的然后呢
                                                                                   我才发现，有些文字的感染力不容忽视
                                                                                   会让人想要继续探索下去
                                                                                   八卦 orz

Random aka short writing.

I enjoy blog walking, very much. blog stalker? No way, just plainly a blog visitor ;)

Found out people's life in their blogs, school life, working life, anything. They're interesting !

Currently needed to improve my English because of the stupid MUET exam in October and November, ish.

So, blog walking more often to read read read and also bought some novel to read and improve my vocab, grammar, etc. *hypnotizing myself I know, to fall in love with lovely English -.-*

Sooo, yeah, It's the last Saturday, Sunday and Monday for me and my brother to be together this

few months or this year I guess?

Just realized that I need him very much, in, anything. Okay I know I rely on him too much, I just rely 

on people too much, so same goes to him. Can't imagine days without him, but anyways, I know It's time for me to learn something, to learn how to be independent and responsible.

It's September !

Wooooooooh, so it's September !

August, full packed with activities and outings, TAT'S SO CALLED LIFE yeah !

Never been so busy with outings and school activities, but no doubt, things started to change in this 2011, after joining form six. I started to become more talkative, more busy and knowing more friends. Love it =)

YESSSSSH, finally Koperasi MP, wooooh, I've done my job and those nonsense finally ended with a nice fullstop, so coming next is ELS and St.John's mp and yes, final examination. Guess what? It's Raya holiday now but heyyyyyy really feel so lazy to read bookssss kay haha ! But anyways, I'll pick up TO NOT MAKE myself disappoint after final ahahaha.

Okay, August, half of the month we didn't study in class but most of the time we practiced for the performance for National Day. Hey, teacher said is International performance kay, chehhhh, so what? LOL, It already took most of our study time at school and It delayed our syllabus ! But then what to do? have to self-study after all to not left out by our syllabus. But At least, we'll get our 17 koko's marks and errrr, so called allowance huh? RM300 for one month practicing, hope they will keep their words in giving us out allowance after everything settled. PS: Thanks to my friends and seniors who became my good listener, counselor and gave me advice and everything, Thanks ! Feel much more much more better every time I share out and express my sadness and things out. Thanks again for those comments and texts ;)

Celebrated best friend's 18th Birthday in class, Hope she will have nice and sweet 18th and friendship 4eva! =)

Yeap, S4 gathering hohoho, at Sunway Pyramid, heyyyy, It's the most far gathering I've been wahaha, brother fetched me there and that's why I can go without any burden, mom also won't worry me so much I know right =D honestly the sing K session not really enjoyed to the max and same goes to the gathering, but who cares at least I met them after so long time and they're still the same, old S4-rians :)) get their signatures to keep as memory. Btw, almost all boys turned up but girls. *sigh, and didn't meet Sue Jean, Sharon Kia hooi this three fellas this time, hope to find one day and meet together ;)

Book Fest 2011 ! Finally I asked my dad to bring me there(KLCC convention centre-*I've never been there before although I'm a Malaysian resident for 18 years :P It's really big :O) and yes,  finally I went :p too crowded and there're really LOTS of books, not really enjoy buying cause it's too crowded. Hmm, bought some novels and sister bought many comics for those artist to sign their autograph.  btw, missed 徐有利, Nerv, 阿母 and other artists' autograph session. aiks, guess have to wait till next year *sigh

After that is I-City ! Parents really can't take them self off from their work somemore recently they become X2 busier :/ Soooooo, didn't ask them to bring us to overseas or what, *I know I wanted to travel to overseas soooooooo long time ago ish.   Okay, so we went to I-City to have some fun, you know what, It's the best time when u're spending your time together with your beloved and your family, no matter at where and when, It's the most sweet and happy time =) Btw, I-city very nice ! those lighted trees and Snow man, Penguin etc =D impressive ! and the snow walk, LOL, next time have to bring glove to there cause It's damn cold inside there, but luckily mom asked us to wear sport shoes, haha, if not, my legs sure frozen inside there =P

Hmmm, and finally come to our last day for our swimming lesson in KEC, thanks to my coach Micheal, Zhen Hou and Jing Wen =) I've learnt so many style and most importantly I can at least swim and I dare to sink my head in the water HAHAHA. Surely will miss those moments and hope we will meet up again someday =)

Okay, Finally August ended and here it comes September ! It's time to more focus on studies and seniors all going to have their trial exam, wish them best of luck ! =)

Orz

生活并不是你想象的那么简单
小时候想要的不过只是棒棒糖，雪糕，折飞机，爸爸妈妈爱我，有颜色笔，有美美的铅笔盒，然后考前三名什么的，简单的幸福，足以让小时候的我获得最大的幸福了
然后的然后，我还是幸福的，现在也很幸福，只是，有时候，有些事，甚至不需要去在乎的事让我觉得我被干扰了，哦，不是幸福被干扰了，而是心情被干扰，然后那种感受是TMD难受
一大早心情超糟orz

对了

最近发生太多事了
总觉得自己还是很嫩 还很天真
发生的事都是些琐事 但是也算是件大事吧
算了， 都不想了 伤心 难过 什么的 去你的
                                                                 对了， 永远不要做好人， 那样你会很辛苦

Ahhhhhh, should be the problem of Stats HAHAHA. =p

Nil

No more interview and AGM, how nice right? =)
But here comes burdens for each responsibility in each clubs.
When u're free, u'll wish to have thousand lofty works to do, but same goes when u're hectic like hell
u'll wish to get back all those words, and go back to those free time, to do nothing.
Same goes when u're angry on one thing, u will feel nothing to angry after that
sad on one thing, but the sadness will fade away the other day u wake up from your dream
Life still go back to the same point, u cry, u laugh, u success, u fail, up and down, thats all.
What you have to do is appreciate what u having now and what you get, life still awesome after all  =)
S-M-I-L-E

btw, flunk my Sej paper, gotta do something on it. =O

Writing the day 728

Yesh, Am officially 18, hey doesn't mean I have to grow mature or what, I have to emo sometimes okay 

Alright, 728 my big day, surprised by friends at class, gosh they brought cake to school for meeee =D

I am the one who don't know how to express my feeling and speak out my feeling well to friends, no matter happy or sad one, I would rather keep it inside my heart and maybe will share to friends if I can't  wait to share the most happy or sad one. And errrrr, maybe it depends to whom and timing is the most important thing.

After that errr, impressed by Zheng Sheng's voice laaah, nice! *Thumbs up* and hey no doubt, he's a music playlist, call him up anytime if u need him to sing for u, he's just so kind to share his voice and music for us.*wink wink* 

Hmmmmmmmmm, okayyyy, after that on my big day, guess what? Yes, disappointed yet speechless. A sudden shock full filled all my nerves, okay, a bit sad maybe. haha. Just don't feel to talk more after that, and just feel that I was the same person as last year, doesn't change much. And just feel disappoint on what I've get for my feedback from my hard work, efforts, everything. Really LOTS of hard work I've put in but yet hmm, nope, not really get the one I hope. Maybe I should wish but not put my hope on it, sometimes it really works and won't make you feel so down if u just wish but not hope because u know people always wish when they strive hard but they know they won't get it, yes yes they maybe get it but the possibilities is somehow lower. I know right, so I did. 

So how? mood swings on my big day huh? LOL, actually it's okay, I just don't want my parents or friends to sense my bad mood that day. Smiley on my face is the best way to cover up everything, it reminds me not to care so much also. thanks to my friends who wished me and said Congratulation for me that day, for my Birthday or post that I've got.

Perhaps, everything not that bad and negative after all, I've met some true friends and know how to keep myself calm and chill. Learn from failure, learn to be strong and learn to be brave. you know people will laugh at your back, let you fall, take advantages from you, traps and everything, but smile to them is always the best weapon ever. Strive hard, do your best and prove to them that they're wrong to do so or what so ever and also prove to yourself that you can do it, you live for yourself, not for them. I did my job with all my hard works and efforts on it, and I know I didn't do anything wrong because that's my responsibilities to do it. get the feedback or not is another saying, you just have to learn something new and feel something that u unexpected. Life- not matter what happened, you just have to run like a crazy man. Life is always awesome no matter what.  

______________________________________________________________________

Huuuuuuuuuh, too many things that I've to go through and express. Just have to cry out loud and settle everything, life still the same, sometimes dark or what I know right. TEEHEE =D everything will be fine after all. ugh hope so

No offence,just want to scold me myself as a stupid that know how to say but don't know how to do. back to emo woots. btw, thanks to bloggers for preparing a nice stage for me to drop down all those stupid stuffs that hard reveal to anyone (=

 BTW, HB 18th to myself =D