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so zi bei :(

New life.

March, I've been so so busy lately and perhaps, for the following months..
Gone through the darkest time in my life so far.
Since I wouldn't know I will have to suffer all these so I listed the darkest time for myself.
What would you react If you would have to open your results in front all your peers and teachers? haha. weird feeling.
What would you react If you're receiving many texts and calls or even facebook and Twitter, asking about your darkest days? oh, you don't want to.
There're too many hardest time that I've gone through these days. Like learn how to drive till my University, have to meet new friends, have to reply all questions from friends, parents, teachers, cousins, aunties etc, owh yea, some stupid questions that pulled my moods down, gotta learn new things like QM for Business, accounting, study econs all in English and so so many other things that I have to resist on in order to pick myself up.
The best thing is at least I've settled down my tertiary education and all these have to thank my greatest parents. They're the one who accompanied me through my lowest point in life and they're always by my side. They left me on my own to pick myself up and let me know I still have three years to persue my degree and in three years time, to buckle up my personalities before stepping into the real world.
Besides, wanna thanks Wong Fu cause their videos did help me to have some great laughs. I'm so glad that they reblogged my comments (Y) Wong Fu For Lyfe ! :)
Across clear skies, among glowing stars, that's where I will find us.

Full stopped.

That little canon camera is mine right now.

nuff said.

Night is still young

When you sleep with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

When you try to let it go, trying alone is the challenging part.

Life's like that, I like being alone actually, but I'm afraid I will really become a loner in the rest of my life.

When I think of this, I will think of my family. At least I feel better in this way :)

Maybe It's not the time to hold a hand. Yet, I've seen too much of people out there, that they're not really ready to get a partner. They're definitely not even ready to make a promise that what they've always said, Forever. 

FOREVER?! LOL.

This and that is life. Peace out ! :)

Am waiting from you guys.

From Pasadena.

Please, at least let me know something!

Be thankful

I'm here, with a different me. :)

feel so loved cause my family members they are still with me. My dad, my mom.

house got robbed on last Monday and dad was sent to hospital.

That moment you went home, saw your mom was crying, maid was crying, lots of policemen and 

that heartbreak moment when you saw bloods on the floor once you stepped into your house.

I burst into tear.

Terrified.

But glad that dad is alright now. 

well, he's the bravest dad ever, and so do my mom. 

Thank God they are still with me. :)

Be thankful and always bare this in mind: safety first.

And hello jerks, karma will hit you guys soon, five of you, please go to hell seriously.

sigh.

Fruits is flooding inside the fridge btw. Too much of visitors and yeap, those backstabbers do exist too.

Maid said she ran out and yelled for helped but non of my neighbours lend out their hands. non even help to call police. 

See, this is a sad world, a cruel ones.

Okay, not to talk much about this since everything is alright now :)

I even dreamt of my results btw, gosh, I'm hoping for a peace of mind.

Marching on March

Gah, like phoenix rises from ashes and I'm finally here, like since when I stop blogging eh? :/

Okay, so I'm here today, 1st of March, 2013

typing my feelings out on keyboard.

I know I'm cool 

cause of MARCH weyh.

what?! Yes, you're right, today is the first day of March and I'm going to get my results next week.

Most probably next week lah, If not should be falls on these few weeks, on March for sure.

It kills my nerves, just merely think about it, It kills. 

Anyways, I'm not going to bang wall while waiting results to be released.

Why worry when you know you're going to face It SOMEDAY right. 

Should get prepared well mentally and expect the worst to get the best.

Like finally, ahh, someday, soon, I'm going to face It alone, again, and I know I have to accept this truth, I have to accept everything I got.

Plus, I wanna complain about my working life now can? -___-

Perhaps I would like to complain my job plainly cause of myself.

Guess I'm the lousiest accountant evarrrr, or should I say accountant's helper lah?

I'm too weak and guess I'm still in my own lego's world.

I need to stop this right away and kao tim everything by Monday.

No matter what.

And hello, David Choi is coming to Malaysia <3

listen

It's DAVID CHOI!  He sings songs, he creates awesome musics. He eats alot. He loves to take photos.

And yes, I'm waiting my mom to be home and ask permission to watch him live tomorrow ! :) (Y)

Hope I'll be there tomorrow and If I can't make It, I wish the best for his performance in Malaysia. :)

and same to Chester and David too ! 

Daebak !

Trip to remember

2013. A great begining for me :)

I went to Kuching Sarawak after Christmas and stayed for nine days.

Brought back souvenirs and of course positivity in life.

I brought back loves and cares. I've learnt to love my family and friends more.

And of course, I've learnt to love myself more. 

Siblings love, family love, friendship love :) caring all the way from the first day till the last. I was blessed through this nine days. God please bless my best friend and this Lee Chan family :)

My first flight in my life, my first countdown without my own family, my first longest trip, all in Sarawak! X)

Ate alot, played alot, enjoyed alot, felt the love and care alot :)

Thank you guys :)

A superb best friend Michelle, a perfect family with a caring parents, a brother Ah Ning, a sister Ah Mei, a pair of twins Ah Hao and Ah Jie :) These people are just too loving and they're funny. Food lovers and great story tellers :)

Nine days of laughters and I will never have had enough of this 

:)

Of course, I will never ever forget my own family which I really wanna love them even more after this trip.(Y)

I came back with the age starting of digit two gosh old ah ma and I came back with great new year resolutions. :D

New year resolutions 

1. Love myself more

2. Love and care my family more

3. Love and care my friends more

4. Stay srong and positive, like always

5. Cry less

6. Buy myself a DSLR

7. Feel blessed no matter how is my result

8. Be more mature

9. Have a peace of mind all the time

10. Settle down my education

11. Save more money

12. Reminisce memories]

13. Never ever forget to smile after my tears

14. Do my very best in everything

15. Keep fit (every girls' dream)

16 Okay height. hahahaha ya' know :) 

17 Smile more

18 Learn to stand on parents' positions

19 Think out of the box

20. Never give up on what I want to do and get

21. On the way 

will add up resolutions If I think of any hahaha, photos will be uploaded If I'm free :)

Stay awesome !

A little confession

Well hahahahhahahahahahahaha. I'm officially done my form six and done all my papers. Err, or I should say HELLO MY LONG HOLIDAYS, BYE BYE HIGH SCHOOL. BITCHES ROCK :)

Nine months of holidays, If I get good results and three months of holidays If results suck hahaha.

Good thing - I don't need to study and burn midnight oil with caffeine. And, I'm goin to have my great holidays spending with my beloved family and friends. Time to catch up with my friends :) Bad thing - Gotta leave school compound and school life forever. no more life in school, no more uniform, tie and assembly. Plus, I'm gonna miss my bitches badly. Memories oh memories. Can't meet people I wanna meet hmm and yes, I'm officially an adult that gotta work and get into society. Guess will work on Mid January If everything's alright and like what my parents settled for me. No more studying or taking course so far. After taking people's advice, parents made up their mind to let me step into working field. And I know I have to get into another position that I've never ever tried before. I have to be very responsible as in working under my "boss" and yeah working pressure I guess. Brand new life, brand new year resolutions hahahah. 

New missions, a brand new me :)

Another thing is I'm freaking worry about my results, I know we can't always hold an umbrella and wait for It to rain. But in another perspective, I'm actually worrying and making every possibilities to happen on me. Like I'm holding and umbrella to predict the rain. And of course, I've made the worst prediction and no matter how, I have to get over It. 

Leaving form six is an easy task actually, just the people that created memories for you. (Don't think you can forget them easily, I mean no way right? :)) I thank my friends that created wonderful memories for me. I thank my friends that let me felt the taste of tears and broken pieces. Overall I've learnt alot throughout this one and half years. I thank my parents for supporting me all the time. And thank you daddy, for helping me fill my car's petrol all this time. I love all of you :) owh and my sister and brother :)

Spending my holidays with errr, nope, not really outing with friends all the time I don't know why but I did enjoy my holidays spending with my family.members :) Watching dramas, and Youtube especially Wong Fu series. Awww Wesley Chan heh. He's always that charming and creative :) One of the hard kind to get I would say. May God bless him and his girlfriend :) *Okay If It's real :) I hope they will live happily ever after :)

Besides, I seriously hate those stupid emo guys. I mean those over dramatic types. That they think they can use their dramatic style and emoness to attract girls or just use to take their hearts? Ah, I mean no way. You can't take ones' heart If he or she doesn't like you. We like a person as we really like from our heart but don't ever accept someone we don't like. Hell. you will burn yourself and your life. So, no forcing and take It easy! I'm always holding this concept with me and that's why letting go is part of the process if you get me. Well. I still have to say thank you people, for everything :) Tears, laughter, awesomeness, everything !

Lastly, Happy Christmas Eve (TOMORROW) and I'm goin to enjoy my first and my last trip in this year 2012-Sarawak with my bestie Michelle Leong <3

2013- BE A BETTER PERSON. SEEKING FOR PERFECTION! :)

Happy Birthday dude ;)

1st November, that beat.

Feel so sorry for myself, for breaking my own rules

previous rule I meant, that will come back after my major exam,  STPM. *see now I'm bloggin :(*

I just feel to write some random things that I really wanted to tell people but I can't.

Or maybe I should just stick to random but not to rules ? :(

Okayy, let's talk about my recent life. You know It was very miserable one as exam is just 18 days left, that is like around 3 weeks. Then yeah, exam, exam exam till holidays. Okay, I know I will go through this very soon and I'm recently working on It.

I was asked which colours I like actually. Most of the people around me like purple, blue, orange etc. I know there're many colours out there, but I can't really pick any one I love. I mean, I love colours, that not really particular, but when It comes to some things, It will be particular. Randomly pink, red, yellow, will be okay for me I think. So when JJ asked, I told him I choose red. I don't know whether that's my favourite colour or not, but yeah, see, my bag is pink in colour, pencil case is blue black, mechanical pencil is purple. etc. I don't really fancy coincidence but this time, purple, both of them love purple, and It's like kind of faith for them you know. 

I wished before, that I told myself I will give It out after exams, but now, I have to pull It back.

Looking forward for Christmas, that everything will be ended. Right ? 

Hopefully lah, and now, back to my books :)

I have to stay strong and let go. 

Yes I am a strong girl and I know I can do It. Things are better to be left unsaid. Always :)

Best memories so far :)

If one would ask me, what is your best memories so far.
I would like to say form six.
I had many of my first time in form six and so I met one gang of good friends.
One gang of lunatics. Yes, they really are. :)
A gang of friends, that I know, they will be part of my best memories in life.
I can't say they are perfect but yes, for me, imperfection is perfect.
That I really want to cherish them and they're the one who I really wanted to say thank you buddies, for everything. I love them.
And guess what ? I even have Indian man as one of my besty :))
Like seriously I never thought of that, and so yes, that macha, my papa or I would like to say, brother :)
Somehow I had the feeling of going to school everyday, just because of some reasons.
That I think It's important for me and for my memories.
That I couldn't forget and will make me got that heart-felt feeling  :)))
But yet, I have to let go. I have to :)
Thank you, for giving some memories that will be eternal for me too :)
Memories, that given by this gang of form six lunatics, will be forever eternal.
Implanting into my heart core, that reminds me everyone of you, that I'm the luckiest person in this world.
And for now, I will just leave my blog blank, until I finish my war with my comrades :)

So YES, ALL THE BEST TO ALL MY BESTIES
I LOVE YOU GUYS :)))
STPM GUA LAI LIAO :)

Out.

Sorry that I have to be this sentimental or I should say emotional.
I will never forget that one glance that you people wouldn't get to know that.
Starting to realize those stupid things that I've done in form six.
That I thought I will just end my form six life in my own simplest way.
But no.

I'm out.
:(

Feel so bad, that sour feeling, that stucked inside my throat. Like cant be removed..

加油

我现在坚持是因为 我不想未来的我痛恨过去的自己

过去 现在 未来 同时存在

而我们只能活在现在

就为自己 热血那么的一次

不管发生什么事 我就是要坚持

加油

never let fear stand in the way of your dreams 

never let failure stops you from chasing your dreams.

Yes.

No matter how hard you've tried, you will never ever get It.

Something that I know, just that someone reminded me today.

Thanks Peter.

I feel you.

與其恨考試，不如靜下心來，就讓自己努力一回，為了自己，為了打開自己不一樣的命運。” -- 阿信

我输不起

Totally lost

Band 3. What should I do.

Stay deaf

Overlapped. Got this feeling before ? 

I always does.

And finally, I'm gonna quit.

Life's like a drama, from top, we need great actors and actress.

Being deaf and focus on what I wanna do will be enough for these two months.

Have faith.

Way to reach.

Everyone has a life that people don't know.
A dream, a desire, a life.
Currently last paper to go on Thursday, Macro.
I promise, I won't take the results seriously, in the way that I won't emo, I won't feel demotivated. But yet, I'll learn from mistakes, take my last chance, use my last two months, fight till the end. Like world will never ends. I got my dream, and I want to realise It. By action. I promise.
Looking forward to Christmas.

愛情也許脆弱 但沒人願意錯過

深怕心再次落空

月朦朧 迎著風 看寂寞的星空

Why fail.

While sitting at the place that don't have a fan that not functioning well
But a super " feng shui " place which is at the second row beside the back door and located at the most behind row.
My exam's seat. That's It.
First time to realize sitting at back cannot see words on white board clearly but the best part is you can just see everyone's action by just slowly tilt up your head in front, to left and to right.
The moment when you sit and see how hard a person can sit there and study.

I failed.

People that always chat around because of fully preparations.And. Yea.

I failed

Well, People who are hopeless like me.

 I failed.

Sejarah exams today, It was a tough one for me cause of laziness. I know have to do constant study but :(
Kek Sui Pattern of bantai-ing.on my Sejarah paper one today. revision till 3am so what. Last minute doesn't help at all. Keeping me as loser, listing me as an idiot.

Till then, study econs lah.

Lucky Guy - David Choi

Oh My God, It's a new video of David Choi, filmed by beloved Wong Fu Crews Babe ! <3
Beautiful song, meaningful, top notch video by WFP. #AWESOMENESS as usual :)))
LOVE IT. 

Oh Wes <3