A little confession

Well hahahahhahahahahahahaha. I'm officially done my form six and done all my papers. Err, or I should say HELLO MY LONG HOLIDAYS, BYE BYE HIGH SCHOOL. BITCHES ROCK :)

Nine months of holidays, If I get good results and three months of holidays If results suck hahaha.

Good thing - I don't need to study and burn midnight oil with caffeine. And, I'm goin to have my great holidays spending with my beloved family and friends. Time to catch up with my friends :) Bad thing - Gotta leave school compound and school life forever. no more life in school, no more uniform, tie and assembly. Plus, I'm gonna miss my bitches badly. Memories oh memories. Can't meet people I wanna meet hmm and yes, I'm officially an adult that gotta work and get into society. Guess will work on Mid January If everything's alright and like what my parents settled for me. No more studying or taking course so far. After taking people's advice, parents made up their mind to let me step into working field. And I know I have to get into another position that I've never ever tried before. I have to be very responsible as in working under my "boss" and yeah working pressure I guess. Brand new life, brand new year resolutions hahahah. 

New missions, a brand new me :)

Another thing is I'm freaking worry about my results, I know we can't always hold an umbrella and wait for It to rain. But in another perspective, I'm actually worrying and making every possibilities to happen on me. Like I'm holding and umbrella to predict the rain. And of course, I've made the worst prediction and no matter how, I have to get over It. 

Leaving form six is an easy task actually, just the people that created memories for you. (Don't think you can forget them easily, I mean no way right? :)) I thank my friends that created wonderful memories for me. I thank my friends that let me felt the taste of tears and broken pieces. Overall I've learnt alot throughout this one and half years. I thank my parents for supporting me all the time. And thank you daddy, for helping me fill my car's petrol all this time. I love all of you :) owh and my sister and brother :)

Spending my holidays with errr, nope, not really outing with friends all the time I don't know why but I did enjoy my holidays spending with my family.members :) Watching dramas, and Youtube especially Wong Fu series. Awww Wesley Chan heh. He's always that charming and creative :) One of the hard kind to get I would say. May God bless him and his girlfriend :) *Okay If It's real :) I hope they will live happily ever after :)

Besides, I seriously hate those stupid emo guys. I mean those over dramatic types. That they think they can use their dramatic style and emoness to attract girls or just use to take their hearts? Ah, I mean no way. You can't take ones' heart If he or she doesn't like you. We like a person as we really like from our heart but don't ever accept someone we don't like. Hell. you will burn yourself and your life. So, no forcing and take It easy! I'm always holding this concept with me and that's why letting go is part of the process if you get me. Well. I still have to say thank you people, for everything :) Tears, laughter, awesomeness, everything !

Lastly, Happy Christmas Eve (TOMORROW) and I'm goin to enjoy my first and my last trip in this year 2012-Sarawak with my bestie Michelle Leong <3

2013- BE A BETTER PERSON. SEEKING FOR PERFECTION! :)

Happy Birthday dude ;)

1st November, that beat.

Feel so sorry for myself, for breaking my own rules

previous rule I meant, that will come back after my major exam,  STPM. *see now I'm bloggin :(*

I just feel to write some random things that I really wanted to tell people but I can't.

Or maybe I should just stick to random but not to rules ? :(

Okayy, let's talk about my recent life. You know It was very miserable one as exam is just 18 days left, that is like around 3 weeks. Then yeah, exam, exam exam till holidays. Okay, I know I will go through this very soon and I'm recently working on It.

I was asked which colours I like actually. Most of the people around me like purple, blue, orange etc. I know there're many colours out there, but I can't really pick any one I love. I mean, I love colours, that not really particular, but when It comes to some things, It will be particular. Randomly pink, red, yellow, will be okay for me I think. So when JJ asked, I told him I choose red. I don't know whether that's my favourite colour or not, but yeah, see, my bag is pink in colour, pencil case is blue black, mechanical pencil is purple. etc. I don't really fancy coincidence but this time, purple, both of them love purple, and It's like kind of faith for them you know. 

I wished before, that I told myself I will give It out after exams, but now, I have to pull It back.

Looking forward for Christmas, that everything will be ended. Right ? 

Hopefully lah, and now, back to my books :)

I have to stay strong and let go. 

Yes I am a strong girl and I know I can do It. Things are better to be left unsaid. Always :)

Best memories so far :)

If one would ask me, what is your best memories so far.
I would like to say form six.
I had many of my first time in form six and so I met one gang of good friends.
One gang of lunatics. Yes, they really are. :)
A gang of friends, that I know, they will be part of my best memories in life.
I can't say they are perfect but yes, for me, imperfection is perfect.
That I really want to cherish them and they're the one who I really wanted to say thank you buddies, for everything. I love them.
And guess what ? I even have Indian man as one of my besty :))
Like seriously I never thought of that, and so yes, that macha, my papa or I would like to say, brother :)
Somehow I had the feeling of going to school everyday, just because of some reasons.
That I think It's important for me and for my memories.
That I couldn't forget and will make me got that heart-felt feeling  :)))
But yet, I have to let go. I have to :)
Thank you, for giving some memories that will be eternal for me too :)
Memories, that given by this gang of form six lunatics, will be forever eternal.
Implanting into my heart core, that reminds me everyone of you, that I'm the luckiest person in this world.
And for now, I will just leave my blog blank, until I finish my war with my comrades :)

So YES, ALL THE BEST TO ALL MY BESTIES
I LOVE YOU GUYS :)))
STPM GUA LAI LIAO :)

Out.

Sorry that I have to be this sentimental or I should say emotional.
I will never forget that one glance that you people wouldn't get to know that.
Starting to realize those stupid things that I've done in form six.
That I thought I will just end my form six life in my own simplest way.
But no.

I'm out.
:(

Feel so bad, that sour feeling, that stucked inside my throat. Like cant be removed..

加油

我现在坚持是因为 我不想未来的我痛恨过去的自己

过去 现在 未来 同时存在

而我们只能活在现在

就为自己 热血那么的一次

不管发生什么事 我就是要坚持

加油

never let fear stand in the way of your dreams 

never let failure stops you from chasing your dreams.

Yes.

No matter how hard you've tried, you will never ever get It.

Something that I know, just that someone reminded me today.

Thanks Peter.

I feel you.

與其恨考試，不如靜下心來，就讓自己努力一回，為了自己，為了打開自己不一樣的命運。” -- 阿信

我输不起

Totally lost

Band 3. What should I do.

Stay deaf

Overlapped. Got this feeling before ? 

I always does.

And finally, I'm gonna quit.

Life's like a drama, from top, we need great actors and actress.

Being deaf and focus on what I wanna do will be enough for these two months.

Have faith.

Way to reach.

Everyone has a life that people don't know.
A dream, a desire, a life.
Currently last paper to go on Thursday, Macro.
I promise, I won't take the results seriously, in the way that I won't emo, I won't feel demotivated. But yet, I'll learn from mistakes, take my last chance, use my last two months, fight till the end. Like world will never ends. I got my dream, and I want to realise It. By action. I promise.
Looking forward to Christmas.

愛情也許脆弱 但沒人願意錯過

深怕心再次落空

月朦朧 迎著風 看寂寞的星空

Why fail.

While sitting at the place that don't have a fan that not functioning well
But a super " feng shui " place which is at the second row beside the back door and located at the most behind row.
My exam's seat. That's It.
First time to realize sitting at back cannot see words on white board clearly but the best part is you can just see everyone's action by just slowly tilt up your head in front, to left and to right.
The moment when you sit and see how hard a person can sit there and study.

I failed.

People that always chat around because of fully preparations.And. Yea.

I failed

Well, People who are hopeless like me.

 I failed.

Sejarah exams today, It was a tough one for me cause of laziness. I know have to do constant study but :(
Kek Sui Pattern of bantai-ing.on my Sejarah paper one today. revision till 3am so what. Last minute doesn't help at all. Keeping me as loser, listing me as an idiot.

Till then, study econs lah.

Lucky Guy - David Choi

Oh My God, It's a new video of David Choi, filmed by beloved Wong Fu Crews Babe ! <3
Beautiful song, meaningful, top notch video by WFP. #AWESOMENESS as usual :)))
LOVE IT. 

Oh Wes <3

R.I.P Calvin

Calvin, with extreme strength and courage, and now peaceful and free as dove.
R.I.P Calvin, been my classmate before, thanks for lending me maths, and everything.
Smile, strength and courage of yours will always become remembrance of us.

Boredom

Skipping school to cure boredom but staying at home doesn't mean you won't get bored.

Never get this bored before until I studied Khalifah in Sejarah Tamadun Dunia. Hell, five Khalifah and I just can't miss anyone of It. Wanna start with my macro war but micro still got two topics. You know sometimes I'm just too lazy to move on and I rather lay on my bed and yes this could happen. That I laid on my bed, eventually I slept, without planning for a nap and slept for hours. Waking up and left me feeling guilty. -_-

By the way, just bought a mini pendrive that I feel Its very unique cause Its a mini dlsr canon camera. Looks very beautiful and I don't konw why I bought It, Damn. Think to give It to one of my friend as birthday present though. It's weird I know but I don't wanna leave any regrets. At least I do something. Right. Not now, but December :) 

Kay, signing off to get back my books now. 

假期快乐 开学快乐

用中文写部落格, 真的很不一样,  如果用手写, 又是另一种感觉了
假期算是过了, 明天开学, 我知道我自己是千百万个不愿意上学的小孩啦
又要上学 又要考试 又有压力 又很累 谁喜欢 ?
但我知道 要比起上班 上学会比较幸福吧
至少 还是有天真烂漫的同学 可爱的校园就免了哈哈哈
假期和家人去了马六甲你不会知道拿这New I-pad摄影会是怎么个回事, 直到你发现它大过你的脸.-______- 马六甲的当地食物听说很棒, 但只吃了鸡饭饭团. 一家人一起吃 胜过吃什么鲍鱼 鱼翅了 :)
然后假期除了补习 补习 补习 还是补习
我不会埋怨 因为我知道 理科的那班小子 补习时间 可能还胜过我的睡眠时间 :O
昨天去了海外华文书市 毕竟是最后第二天了 所以总觉得人潮没有去年来得多?
其实更好, 今年只逛了英文官 和文娱馆 中文馆是逛了 但是只逛漫画那里 :3
有点Over Budget 所以索性明年才逛中文官好了, 家里还有几本九把刀的书 翻都没还没翻 呵呵
一点抵达 知道那是老板的签名时间啦 可是没有去 因为去年准时到都签不到了 今年真的不想去挤 所以就在英文馆逛到爽 书也买得算超多 但都是留到假期再看 现在眼前的只有STPM 其余的 免谈
然后大约三点逛完英文馆 就想到老板 真的希望他还在 可能还可以签书
然后我就是这样幸运 当了最后第二个 然后又是全场最老的大小孩 排这队 兴奋的等待索取签名 很幸运的那个阿母也在场 本人实在太酷 漫画也画得太好笑了 :)))
然后就轮到徐老板 终于 这个大名人叔叔 我终于拿到他的签名了 在论坛混了这么久终于跟老板说话 本来要吃顿饭 可是真的太拍谢了 -_______- 老板看起来也超累的 漫画人 真的不好当 尤其是像他这种 几乎铁人嘛
说过话 签了名 也合过照 总算了了我去年的心愿 :)
看到那么多漫画家 作家的努力 我真的想到 很久以前的我 有过那个冲动想要画部好漫画 写部好文章 好故事
然后昨天又看到他们那么努力的想要突破 要当漫画人 写作人 所承受的 真的不轻 所以大家真的要加加油 :)
就像老板说的那样:

大约10年之前，几乎看不到本地任何作家，漫画家办签名活动。
可以这么说，当时大家都对这类活动没有信心和把握，
搞不好签名活动会让自己会陷入门可罗雀的尴尬局面。

曾几何时，本土创作终于有了很大的进步

得到出版社的鼓励下，现在新人作者，漫画人
都勇于面对这种签书活动的新挑战。

看到好多新人作者，漫画人勇于站出来为自己作品宣传
和办签名会，面对支持者不多的情况下，还能坚守下去，
可见大家都做好了最坏的面对心里准备。

我很高兴，这是好事。

当今各行各业竞争激烈，新人创作者已不能像过去般
呆在家里头等成果收割了。必须得想办法为自己作品
争取曝光，寻求突围而出的机会。

这点，黄明志是个成功的典范。

新一辈的创作者，必需得勇于克服前期的辛酸苦辣。
记得我第一场签书会，面对整百张椅子，空无一人的
尴尬场面，我也跨过去了。

台湾著名漫画家弯弯，几年前第一次来KLCC书展办活动
也同样得面对这种尴尬场面，当时我看着弯弯，独自一人
站在一堆她漫画作品旁，等待购买者给她签名。
现在，几乎每一场签书会都得排队了。

同样情况，台湾漫画家阿推也不例外，第1次来马
办签书会，也同样门可罗雀。毕竟阿推跟马来西亚漫画迷
脱节了很多年，如今也得以新人角度从新再出发。

祝福所有新一辈的写作者，漫画人

大家加油～

对了, 明天开学,还是很讨厌. 

and hell yea, back to Sej peta minda perbandingan.

卡马在作祟.吧

这种感觉 太恐怖
可不可以不要再延续下去
#karma

Light bulb as in blessing

Super big light bulb today, guess I did It right. Although I'm not happy with It at first.
caused I was called there to become a light bulb. hahaha who cares right ._.
at least.
She has a very blessed advanced birthday today :)
and finally he get to gave her a cake, presents, and sit with her for a movie.
He's in our nice guy list by the way. Top 3 :)

Laugh me la.

Can you make It ? you on, then she on.
Again.
and Jay said, I should go, coz she's my kawan, my bestie.
After tuition marathon I can imagine the tiredness of my body, somemore like crash with the dinner time with family, and need to tell me mom that I'm going out for a movie etc.
So I really should go ? I cannot have my own rights ? :'(
But I know, I will go :(
pei si me please.